I need to Zen down!

It seems like next semester, for all my four classes, I am to have only 2 days of Uni. That means 2 packed and busy days in Uni!! Why don’t they distribute it?? This semester I had 3 days of uni and already that is crazy enough. But I guess it’s good. 2 days of Uni means I have 2 days to work, and another day for dance class. That’s 5 days of the week.

However, I do need to Zen down my life. As of now it has too many zest. They were weeks where I’m out of the house more than I am in. There are times when I spend more time in the Uni than anywhere else. And there are times where I spend more time with people than being alone. Most of the times, I’m chatting with you guys while I’m juggling hundreds of other things. Most of the time I’m chatting with more than 6 people at once AND juggling hundred of things on the side!!! What else can I say, I am addicted to hectic life. If I’m not “working” at home, I’m out and about. It’s one of the distraction method. Sitting still will make me go morose, seriously. The rare times that I do cry is when I have had enough time to myself to think about things, and get depressed by it.

Stress level has decreased significantly ever since he came into my life (yes, cliche…for lack of better words. You are allowed to puke, it’s alright) because I spew out things to him. I don’t hold it in my head anymore. Recently he told me not to work everyday during the holidays because he’s taking me away on a trip to de-stress myself. I thought that was really sweet and if it comes through, I’d really appreciate him for that.

Recently too my closest ex have always been online. He knows me a lot better than any other exes, having been with me during tough times. He’s all the way in London now so sometimes when I’m pulling an all-nighter, the time zone enable us to “meet”. I talk things through with him, he puts it into perspective and that makes things much clearer.

There is just one problem: My room.

I have trouble sleeping in this room because it’s also my “office”. I could be lying down on the bed, but I could see my laptop, my books, and the table. You know how it feels? It just feels like taking a nap on the sofa in your office. That in an hour you’re going to be up and about doing work again. I have to change the look of this room somehow after finals. The environment is not doing me any good. Unfortunately we don’t have any other spare room here to set up a study. Don’t mention studying in the living room where the TV is, I’d just be drooling over Prison Break, Numb3rs, Heroes etc etc.

I also sleep with my cellphone near me. I know that’s not recommended, but I usually sleep when everyone else is awake so there is bound to have one or two calls. That said, I really spend about 4 hours talking on the phone. What I usually do is put it on loudspeaker and I continue whatever I’m doing while I talk. 4 hours…and that is only for important people. Both my bosses, a select few of friends, the doctor…you get the idea.

There are people that I will speak on the phone to and give 100% attention. Special people only, those most important in my life. It’s mummy, grandma, and him. These people, I give them full attention when they’re talking to me. With mummy and grandma, I talk to them through Skype and it is a huge challenge to stop myself from doing anything on the computer. Really.

Recently 24 hours seems so few. It’s winter, so by 5pm it gets dark. It gives you the impression that your day is shorter. This week I’ve only managed to log 232 serious steps on my pedometer. I have not read the newspaper since Tuesday last week. I still haven’t balanced my books for the whole month of May!! The delayed to-do list keeps increasing…

 

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